It's almost the end of the week...tomorrow is prom...then...BAM! EXAMS...
Anywho...school has been getting on my nerves lately. Let's see why...
Well... We had a 'celebration assembly' and I felt that it was so wrong. Wrong in the sense that this celebration assembly was supposed to be on Asian Heritage. Asian, that must be all of Asia. So...that should include ALL the countries in Asia, if I'm not mistaken. But...it didn't include all of Asia...hmmm...let's see...it actually left OUT the majority of Asia. And can we all guess which Asians did this assembly NOT leave out? I'll give you a hint, stereotypically speaking they are 'brown.' I didn't want to be racist and actually put it NOT in quotations. So anyways...they didn't leave out countries like Pakistan and India, no...of course not. Not when the chair of the parent council who 'decided' to have the assembly is from one of those countries. Hmm...what does this leave me to say? It leaves me to say that it was a racist assembly. That's right, plain RACIST. I would NOT have said it was racist if, they wanted to celebrate Indian and Pakistan Heritage, no because it is what it is. But it was Asian Heritage, and to say Asian Heritage is just Indian and Pakistan Heritage is racist. It's like saying all Canadians are white. It's the same concept and that concept is WRONG. How can people not see how this is just NOT right? How do people fail to see that we just went against our own Canadian charter by administrating such an event. How is it fair to other Asian people from other Asian countries? IT IS NOT FAIR!!! I felt cheated of and lied to. This was the first year my school has done an assembly like this, and what happens, more than half of Asia is NOT included.
Speaking of Asia...let's go to something else before I continue to rant on about how I dislike my school for being racist.
The earthquake in China and its territories have killed so many innocent lives that I feel that my school should have gone over that, and have a little memorial thing for those people. But...half of my school consists of 'brown' people, and about a third is 'black' people. Why would they even bother with such a thing. And it makes me feel so horrible, even though I'm not chinese. Teachers always tell us to read the news and pay attention to things internationally, thus, they still were able to not do anything that is so significant like a mini memorial for the thousands of lives that were recently lost. What a shame.
Anyways...moving away from such a depressing thing, I recently finished the TVB series Catch Me Now. For a series that I never intended to watch, it was quite entertaining. The 21st century robin hood thing really works. I totally agree with his character when he says how some bad guys can't be punished by the laws, and thus, he needs to punish them using extraordinary means. This is totally true, we all know it. The law is there, but it can only do so much. Justice may or may not be served, but in the series it really shows you how there are different means to serving justice, the legal and illegal way. Overall I really enjoyed it, very interesting.
Now...my fanfics....Tired of Being Sorry should be updated this weekend...since I always have ideas for it. As for Take 2, I seem to be having issues finding a way to continue it, maybe I really lost that inspiration I once had for it. I don't really know. Recently I've been working on an opening theme for my new fanfic that should be coming this summer...I'm having difficulty giving the newest fanfic a title, thus, it's difficult to write the lyrics to the song. I think this fanfic will be amusing...and dramatic...and I'll leave it at that. lol
I'm tired, restless, and I have a calculus quiz on Prom day...I think I should study...well...that's all folks.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Life
People say a lot of things, like opportunities don't come to you, so you should grab any opportunity that passes you by. People also say that you should dream big...thus, people say a lot of things. It's funny how my life does not really reflect what people say. The greatest opportunities were always given to me, I never had to really grab it or take a hold of it. It somehow came waltzing by and took a hold of me. So...I continued to think that everything would be 'spoon fed' to me by someone...though, I don't really know who. Now that I'm in grade 12 the final year of high school...I realized that if I wanted something I should go for it. Grab it by its tail and not let it go. So I grabbed, and I missed. How funny it is to think that people say that you should grab the opportunities that come by you, when that doesn't seem to be working for me at all.
I wanted to get into this program in university, first thinking that it would just give my ego another boost, I applied. When I found out what the program was really able to give me, I wanted it...and tried to do as much as I could possibly do to get in. My efforts were wasted, I got rejected. I faced rejection with a laugh and moved on with my life. I applied for a scholarship, I thought that I would get it, just because I have a huge ego and I did a lot of extracurricular activities, but...I didn't. Opportunities seem to be just slipping away from my grasp one by one. Then, valedictorian...it's funny how...it was one of the few things that I ever wanted to do in high school. I thought it would be a true democratic system where who wanted to run would run, but it wasn't. It was a popularity contest, and the funny part is, only half of the graduates were aware of this popularity contest, which caused me to not get what I wanted.
One by one, opportunities are waltzing by, I try to grab a hold of them and they seem to just slip away, further and further away from me. Today we voted for the valedictorian, I sat there and listened. There was nothing that I could've done. Nothing. Why wasn't I up there? I asked myself, was it that I wasn't qualified enough? Was it that I'm not popular enough? Was it because I can't seem to represent my peers? I personally don't think so. I actually think that I would've been a much better valedictorian candidate than both of the people on stage. But what can I do? Nothing. I guess it's fate...that I can't get what I want....when I actually really want it.
It's funny how i always get things that I never truly want, and end up really liking it. I never really wanted to join any sports team...I ended up playing on multiple teams. I never wanted to do any extracurricular activities, I ended up being in almost all of them. I never intended to be in the student council, I ended up being president. But when I wanted to be valedictorian, I didn't get it. When I wanted that scholarship and to get into that program, I didn't get it. Does it mean that I should just want nothing in life and in return get everything? How does that make any sense? Why is it that when I want something so badly, I can never seem to get it? Why is it that nothing ever goes the way I planned it to go...how am I supposed to think of my future when already the events that take in my life just happens spontaneously.
I'm so confused, so upset, I feel like I'm being toyed with, yet I can't seem to do anything. Everytime I want to speak out, they say I'm complaining, everytime I want to take action, they call me a rebel. What am I supposed to do? Sit and stare at a wall? I'm tired of being seen as a lucky person, for having all that I have today, I'm sick and tired of being looked down upon because they assume I have connections to get my way through life when I don't. Half of the things I've ever done is because I did it at the spur of the moment. I guess I'll always be a spontaneous person, whatever happens will happen.
I never get what I want...nor do I get what I need...I just get things...that I would never think I could get.
My life sounds so very odd...what about yours?
I wanted to get into this program in university, first thinking that it would just give my ego another boost, I applied. When I found out what the program was really able to give me, I wanted it...and tried to do as much as I could possibly do to get in. My efforts were wasted, I got rejected. I faced rejection with a laugh and moved on with my life. I applied for a scholarship, I thought that I would get it, just because I have a huge ego and I did a lot of extracurricular activities, but...I didn't. Opportunities seem to be just slipping away from my grasp one by one. Then, valedictorian...it's funny how...it was one of the few things that I ever wanted to do in high school. I thought it would be a true democratic system where who wanted to run would run, but it wasn't. It was a popularity contest, and the funny part is, only half of the graduates were aware of this popularity contest, which caused me to not get what I wanted.
One by one, opportunities are waltzing by, I try to grab a hold of them and they seem to just slip away, further and further away from me. Today we voted for the valedictorian, I sat there and listened. There was nothing that I could've done. Nothing. Why wasn't I up there? I asked myself, was it that I wasn't qualified enough? Was it that I'm not popular enough? Was it because I can't seem to represent my peers? I personally don't think so. I actually think that I would've been a much better valedictorian candidate than both of the people on stage. But what can I do? Nothing. I guess it's fate...that I can't get what I want....when I actually really want it.
It's funny how i always get things that I never truly want, and end up really liking it. I never really wanted to join any sports team...I ended up playing on multiple teams. I never wanted to do any extracurricular activities, I ended up being in almost all of them. I never intended to be in the student council, I ended up being president. But when I wanted to be valedictorian, I didn't get it. When I wanted that scholarship and to get into that program, I didn't get it. Does it mean that I should just want nothing in life and in return get everything? How does that make any sense? Why is it that when I want something so badly, I can never seem to get it? Why is it that nothing ever goes the way I planned it to go...how am I supposed to think of my future when already the events that take in my life just happens spontaneously.
I'm so confused, so upset, I feel like I'm being toyed with, yet I can't seem to do anything. Everytime I want to speak out, they say I'm complaining, everytime I want to take action, they call me a rebel. What am I supposed to do? Sit and stare at a wall? I'm tired of being seen as a lucky person, for having all that I have today, I'm sick and tired of being looked down upon because they assume I have connections to get my way through life when I don't. Half of the things I've ever done is because I did it at the spur of the moment. I guess I'll always be a spontaneous person, whatever happens will happen.
I never get what I want...nor do I get what I need...I just get things...that I would never think I could get.
My life sounds so very odd...what about yours?
Friday, May 9, 2008
My Apologies
I know that I said before that I would update this fanfic during the week/before the weekend but because of the many events that took place, I was unable to do so.
My week started off fine, as in everything went pretty well. Our school managed to come second in the Science Olympics (yes, I was part of the team). So the next day we come back to school...everything seemed to have spiraled downward for me.
It's funny how for all of the classes I have, I have a student teacher. I, as an extremely opinionated and creative student never get along with student teachers. I don't know, maybe I have the mentality that they are not really teachers, but rather students. STudents that are trying very hard to impress the teacher (my actual teacher). I find them to be somewhat pathetic and they tick me off. Maybe this explains why my marks are always dropping whenever I have a student teacher. So...I failed the math assessment and asian failed a bio assignment...
And remember...it continues to spiral downward. I come home to check my email...and what do I see...a rejection email from the university program that I actually wanted to go into. Now...with everything that happened...do you really think I was in the mood to update?
Of course not. I was disappointed at myself for not getting a higher average and disappointed with the typos that I found in my supplementary application for that program. Then the 'what if's ' started to pop in my head. I really hate those 'what if's' so very horrible in deed.
So...let me inform you of my update. The update will take place this weekend...I don't care how busy I am...but I WILL UPDATE this fanfic because it is my outlet. I really do enjoy writing...it's funny how I love writing, I love music...and yet I want to go into science. Maybe it's an asian influence, maybe I've been watching too many doctor related series...or maybe...just maybe...there is something in my past that motivates me to go into sciences and become a doctor.
Yes...this sounds like the story of a typical asian...but let's face it...that's the reality of an Asian person. Your parents will always want you to be a doctor, lawyer, pharmacist, engineer...and etc. Personally...I actually like those occupations, I love to argue, I love research and I like taking things apart, and cutting things open. Anywho...back to the fanfic.
The next chapter will arrive soon...very soon...hopefully, I'll finish writing it tonight, and post it up sometime during this weekend. HOPEFULLY.
Anyways...I finished watching A Journey Called Life, and I absolutely loved it...well more like really liked it...and now I'm starting to watch Catch Me Now. At first it didn't appeal to me at all, but...I thought it might be cool...so ya...
And this summer...there will be a fanfic...a very nicely crafted fanfic written by me. So far...I have the plot, and I'm working on the intro video and I already wrote a very short instrumental openning theme for it. Hopefully it won't be a disappointment.
TOODLES
My week started off fine, as in everything went pretty well. Our school managed to come second in the Science Olympics (yes, I was part of the team). So the next day we come back to school...everything seemed to have spiraled downward for me.
It's funny how for all of the classes I have, I have a student teacher. I, as an extremely opinionated and creative student never get along with student teachers. I don't know, maybe I have the mentality that they are not really teachers, but rather students. STudents that are trying very hard to impress the teacher (my actual teacher). I find them to be somewhat pathetic and they tick me off. Maybe this explains why my marks are always dropping whenever I have a student teacher. So...I failed the math assessment and asian failed a bio assignment...
And remember...it continues to spiral downward. I come home to check my email...and what do I see...a rejection email from the university program that I actually wanted to go into. Now...with everything that happened...do you really think I was in the mood to update?
Of course not. I was disappointed at myself for not getting a higher average and disappointed with the typos that I found in my supplementary application for that program. Then the 'what if's ' started to pop in my head. I really hate those 'what if's' so very horrible in deed.
So...let me inform you of my update. The update will take place this weekend...I don't care how busy I am...but I WILL UPDATE this fanfic because it is my outlet. I really do enjoy writing...it's funny how I love writing, I love music...and yet I want to go into science. Maybe it's an asian influence, maybe I've been watching too many doctor related series...or maybe...just maybe...there is something in my past that motivates me to go into sciences and become a doctor.
Yes...this sounds like the story of a typical asian...but let's face it...that's the reality of an Asian person. Your parents will always want you to be a doctor, lawyer, pharmacist, engineer...and etc. Personally...I actually like those occupations, I love to argue, I love research and I like taking things apart, and cutting things open. Anywho...back to the fanfic.
The next chapter will arrive soon...very soon...hopefully, I'll finish writing it tonight, and post it up sometime during this weekend. HOPEFULLY.
Anyways...I finished watching A Journey Called Life, and I absolutely loved it...well more like really liked it...and now I'm starting to watch Catch Me Now. At first it didn't appeal to me at all, but...I thought it might be cool...so ya...
And this summer...there will be a fanfic...a very nicely crafted fanfic written by me. So far...I have the plot, and I'm working on the intro video and I already wrote a very short instrumental openning theme for it. Hopefully it won't be a disappointment.
TOODLES
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